ABSTRACT
In this chapter I delineate a particular manifestation of the nonreproduction of mothering: how a constellation of unconscious mother-daughter-sibling fantasies, anchored by a deadened aggression against both self and object, can destabilize and undermine fertility and maternality. Partly because, as I discovered somewhat after the fact, these fantasies may coexist in the same person with (not obviously related) experiences of time's standing still, women with this particular fantasy constellation may put off thinking about motherhood or even not notice their own age advantage. These women's internal conflicts and fantasies about having children and about time's standing still encounter external changes. These changes have occured in gender roles and family patterns; in the culture's interpretation of biology, aging, and time; and in the actual biological constraints of aging.
