ABSTRACT
The next question which occupied my mind was how to justify my change of technique in terms of psycho-analytic theory. As I have said, I felt more and more that I had not acquired adequate mental tools for understanding much of what was going on, or for knowing how to deal with it when I did understand; in fact, there was a kind of split in myself, between the aspects of the analytic experience with her that I felt I could usefully organize and therefore talk about in terms of the concepts that I had acquired during my training, and areas of my own experience that I had not yet discovered how to link up with the accepted hypotheses of psycho-analysis. So when, in the first years, she constantly told me what a fool I was, I did not think it was wise to put this down only to neurotic resistance to the interpretations I was trying to give her.
