ABSTRACT
Begins 1st session: Runs small carriage / towards me = (aiming atp. 1 genital region) / says is fetching me – continues with small / woman (figure). – She climbs with man / on to a carriage – another man comes / up to carriage, runs them over – are dead / were eaten up. – I am a lute-/ player am run over by a man / with carriage because am in the way. – Another / time builds house. Man is on the / ground, catches mice, roasts he – [something crossed out] says / – her favourite meal potato fritter. / – The people burst, burn up / house collapses. – Another time house / is protected against burglars / on all sides. – A small man / (again the 3rd one – who still runs over / with carriage – but who also comes / to visit man and woman & woman bites / off nose in 1st session.) wants to / [In first session she also wants to bite off my nose]1 / creep in there. – Stops playing. After / interpretation – she small man who ident. {identification} / father wants mother – continues / to play. – Many games of this kind. – / Thereby as school: teacher shows children / how plays lute with head. Then / throws lute away and dances with / schoolgirl (interpret also here her / head-banging) – eight days long / day & night, in which terribly aggressive | Another time schoolmaster and schoolmistress / are withp. 2 children – whom they were teaching / how to bow etc. abc – at first very / obedient & polite – then attack / schoolmaster & schoolmistress – kill, roast them / – the children are devils & are happy / – while constantly trampling etc. / – then they are both in heaven / – the former devils are angels – ‘but are / not former devils at all, know nothing / about them so cannot be them’. God the Father / (formerly the man) kisses the woman passionately / all well. – When schoolmaster dances with schoolgirl – / tenderest embrace kisses – asks me / if I allow marriage – dances to loud / noise 8 days & nights long, with / her. – Thereby terribly aggressive & scornful / towards me – shouts me down / when I want to speak (interpret in order not to listen / which she had to with mother) – Another time shows / how man reads a book / while standing on his head (bumping / his head!) – Immediately in 1st session interpret her / running over carriage – running over / lute-beater – man with carriage who runs / over man & woman – running over woman / as coitus wish & coitus observation / & imitation. Also that the fear / of robbers that stops as long as /
she | bumps her head – is why the head-bump-/ing compulsive. – When in playing first | session constant faltering and / resistance – p. 3 interpreted: result removal / of resistance expansion in desire to play. – / – Showed me that catkin (plant)i / in vase at my house so lovely – licks & kisses it wants / to bite it. Very soon (3rd session) she acts / Frau Dr Klein; interprets to me. – When I set up man / and woman. Both read – woman asks / man something because of his book: she: / She tells him: now put your pipi right into me. – In one game in 2nd
session / man had wanted to climb into post-van / tried various entrances – then / stuck head in at window. Then had / told car: but come right inside / to me (Interpreted mother who draws father’s / pipi and him completely into herself.) – She / brings me this interpretation / now. – When she / wants to interpret to me again – I interpret she plays / mother and child – then really plays / mother & child: I still small, not / speaking – put everything in mouth – first / thing I put in mouth: engine with / 2 lamps, suck on it. (She had / much admired engine – said / 2 gilded round parts / – lamps – were: so beautiful, / so red & burning. Thereby stuck / in mouth – just as when talks / about little collar, catkin – also when / woman run over by man – afterwards cooking / eating and puts man or woman in / mouth – sucks, bites.) She then constantly / says ‘ugh’ – I put away again put / to mouth – also carriage or man / (Then also interpret engine with 2 lamps = mother’s breasts & penis) | (following her p. 4 instruction.) Divides up bricks / so – that she always has more than me – / overcompensation – then again too many to me / – back and forth – counts, begins compulsively / to divide up repeatedly. Forces me / to build as well. – Then makes ever bigger / garden or house – pushes at my / building – knocks over bricks, throws down / wants to make me pick up. – Here / especially strong sadism emerges. – Must / explain when silent, be silent when / want to speak. Makes me build so as / constantly to prove hers prettier, bigger. (Interpret / her competitive envy – house, garden / [into]1 which puts man = body, genitals.) / In the garden makes fountain. As first from this: / woman drinks. Then drinks / glass of water from my tap – then / goes to loo. Drinks water in every session. – / With building-thing talks about ‘pieces’ – / that I threw around & other material / as stool-thing. – When interpret is stool – anger / with mother about stool-control – /
she puts brick in mouth, sucks / & bites – says: it is even nicer now / when is wet – more appetising. – (Interpret / at same time with stool also making wet & thereby / putting in mouth.) – Here also penis meaning of / bricks clear. E.g. cries and begs / because small man has no feet and cannot / stand – wants me to stick | brick on him –p. 5 therefore cries. (I interpret small man / she – repeatedly the 3rd – burglar – who bites / off nose – the brother, the guest.) Br-/ick = penis – she begs me for this.) One / of her games in 1st session. Man and woman / caress, kiss each other – drive in cart. / Small man on other cart goes towards / them – runs over, kills them – re-/peatedly runs over particular force. – / When In fight small man’s cart / is also thrown around – woman helps him to / stand up – comforts, kisses him – says no / longer needs old man had enough / – marries small one kisses passionately / loves him. – Is herself small man who / in 1 session also bites off nose – (as / she wanted to do to me) when comes as guest / – runs cart against woman as she / against me etc. – With building-things plays / that in this built house / man woman live, who burst, burn up / house collapses etc. – Wants to make / me give present, takes brick with her / terrible despair when want to refuse / interpret stool-frustration. While dividing up / bricks etc. – recognises envious / aggressive impulse, admits – also play-/acts supposedly dividing equally – destroys house / pretending ‘by chance’, throws / bricks down etc. – Only admits with difficulty / – but then recognises, exercises aggression etc. / [something crossed out] (overcoming egoresistances / – at home and kindergarten becomes / wildly aggressive but also much less anxious, more pleased) / – Paper games – begins to cut out | blankets – serrated, fringed. Gives / to me – but wants to makep. 6 me give her / 5 pfennigs for the paper. – Gives me strips of / coloured paper – ‘no child brings me so many / presents’. – Then asks me again what / least pretty of the cut-out material / – that she gives me – along with strips of black / paper because least likes – even mentions / great wish – this colour. – Thereby / tells how – while cutting out is making / minced meat – blood must then also / come out – ‘trembles, should not speak / about it – because feels very ill then’. / – Then says are fringes that she cuts / in my nose – thereby repeated / praye wish & also attempt to bite off / my nose. – Then gives me blanket / cut into several pieces – says she / can put them together again for me [something crossed out] / agrees interpretation that wants to put / together reshape my cut-up genitals in overcompensation. / Wants to force me / to keep giving her lots of new paper to /
[sth crossed out] cut up while taking special / pleasure in using up for me as much / as possible to destroy. When I want to reject / compulsion – terrible despair. Forgets / loses prepared paper from home – after / a while and interpretation of her will for power / and destruction she readily brings paper / to cut up with her. – Folds, makes / ‘puff-star’ that she can blow up | herself recognises penis that p. 7 expands. – At same time / and during building-things – draws. / – Drawings at end of exercise book. {Figures 1 and 2} Laughs / at drawing with house below / [(interpret mother dies)]1 because woman above it. Heaven comes / – then house is scrawled / all over with black / lines – beginning to / understand anal material! Says knows that / would like to smear herself with / small and large – that she / would really like to do that in bed – / she even knows that very well herself. – / Against wanting to eat stool urine at first / resistance – but then admits / from material. – That fountain [the rest illegible because of mark] / also breast-milk – also original [rest illegible because of mark] mother / licked off bricks [rest illegible because of mark] / asks for pot with [water]1 / [rest illegible because of mark] [wants]1 to make / little ship swim [rest illegible because of mark] wash-stand / added to this [rest illegible because of mark] number / of sessions the following water games: – / cuts out little pieces of paper – doubts / whether girl – or boy captain: previously / had asked for Erich. – Makes captain / swim – ship goes down saves herself / wreck – swims on. – States / cannot sink (although keeps ducking / him) has something long, golden / that holds him up – tears his head / off – is drowned. – [something crossed out] Washes underclothes / pieces of paper. Is a washerwoman. I mother / child has underclothes with stool and urine keeps / dirtying herself. Then I child again | p. 8 keeps giving me clean nappies. – This game / in ever new variations: – dashes up to me, to splash and dirty me / – pours from glass and flower-vase – points / to big stream of water. Also asks for brushes / – all three penis from which would like to / splash. – Asks for big piece of soap / when does not get afterwards / we play ‘Emperor and King’ [soap = pipi]1 by throwing / each other wet towel from wash-stand. / – About wet towel she had asked me if she could / throw it at the wall and leave it lying / where it fell. – Wet towel, wet little cloth / repeatedly also penis as also / wet nappy and alternately she washerwoman / I mother – then I child. – Here she advises / as washerwoman beating child / in order to cure uncleanliness [?], beating / on buttocks with stick [represented on armchair]1 under a small piece /
of cotton wool is placed. – From this the child / becomes clean, also quickly learns to speak / and read and everything. – Sometimes plays that / it is used but mainly that beating / must always be done by father / who must repeatedly be / fetched. She is often tender mother, thinks it / doesn’t matter at all if child gets / dirty, should just keep changing / trousers that has filled etc. – Then she / feeds me as well and in fact with the water / in which she washed and also with the / washed pieces of paper – about which | she also says well stuck on –p. 9 also spoke / stool so stuck on underclothes – says / also what we have washed or cooked / is the same. – She herself keeps / drinking water from wash-basin – the / washed paper pressed together / chews greedily spits out eats again – / delighted at how fine, will not be / stopped. – Wishes to fill wash-basin / right up to the outermost edge – here / pours from glass and also once breaks / glass in doing this – also phantasises / that is doing it in me – clear that / mother’s womb wash-basin – also that not [?] / to me underclothes – but paper also means / child that is thus being treated and cared for. / – One time I am to be mother, she washerwoman / who is also doctor, am to ask advice what to / give child, so that becomes clean. – Then recommends / me a white powder mixed with / red. The red is rose that grows / in her garden – crushed mixed with / white given to eat – this makes / her so well-behaved, clean – can talk / speak is as clever as mother etc. / – Another time I am to ask her / advice again. – Then I must go away / – she fetches little magician – that knocks / twice at the back on stool-hole – once / on the head with magic wand, from which / something yellowish flows into her – from this | miraculousp. 10 development like previous one. – This / little magic man also shouts – she must quickly / carry that to school – fetch from there / – that also shows here that she can cook / for mother and she thereby surpasses her / in this and everything. – At this [when little man comes]1
mother must disappear / however. Interpret: [little man]1 is father penis – which / gives nourishment in vagina = mouth – likewise / also red-white – destroyed pipi with / semen. Stick with white the same. – Long-/ ing incorporation as seen by mother / then still surpasses mother. – One time / explains wants to play water games while sitting on chair. / Then had doubts because makes everything too wet / great resistance. – Then proves to me / was right that way. – Sitting on chair turns out / later to be lavatory, pot – meant prohibition / cleanliness training. – After once / spoken about doing poo and pee-pee presses / against me shows me bottom – suggests to me /
to dance to show me – Then dances / doing poo – so that bottom sticking backwards / legs stretched but not ungracefully / – a completely different position – also agile – / dances doing pee-pee. – Thereby also for me and / also besides wish to see me – phantasises / repeatedly mother also father bathroom / listening. – The countless changes in these / water games always follow / interpretations, details return until / cleared up. – Repeatedly also phantasy / that I as mother dirty myself – | – thereby she calls father one time, shows how p. 11 / mother dirty trousers – calls police-/ man who leads mother away gives / her only bread and water. – She then informs / policeman has found much / more filth of mother’s – after that he / leaves her to starve. – She lives with / father must first from that is me – / who is completely in agreement with this / explains that mother dead – cleans all / mother’s filth away and it becomes clear that / everything touched in room / filth – table chairs floor pile / – all food and drink full of it – / then must call for help / to a Frau ‘Dreckparadi’ii who also does not / immediately get ready – by her / self portrayed – says later / that she herself also ‘Dreckparadi’ / – then cooks for father and gives him / something to eat, while scolding / mother and he constantly / recognises her superiority. – / Next session strongly inhibited, no / wish for any water games – says does / not want to think about that mother starves. / – Meanwhile again sessions in which / folds. Teaches me this – / continually indicates – badly made, / star torn in wrong places / – recognises herself: damaged / little slit – keeps making / herself new ones – superiority | also proves how after p. 12 Emperor King / throwing wet cloth – teaches / me gymnastics – shows how not / good stretching arms straight out – can / shake hand loose – interpret superiority / sexual intercourse with also masculine / mother – she better pipi. – At beginning / anal material appears – asks me / for a new pfennigs for folding paper from / Fräulein W. – explains father mother never / give her that – tries to win me over / with presents but only / cuts off strips of coloured paper that gives / to me, more and more in order to assert / will. (Interpret remembers black paper – / stool-presents.) Then cut-out little blankets / frayed into pieces etc. that I can / put back together myself – minced / meat making cut-up genitals / good again. – But thereby always takes / what is prettier and bigger. Also crowns / that places on head. – After
a few / hours after beginning, in which licked and bit / – catkin = little collar – frantically / straightens hair – says slide will not stay in / – [something crossed out] hair so untidy could / also sleep so badly at night because / slide held so badly. – Speaks to slide / as she fastens – with ‘You monkey, Frank, you should / stay in place’. Frank = neighbour, gentleman / in same house. – Tells girl friend, he | is so funny, isp. 13 like monkey in zoo. – / Interpret father’s member – that is in her / hair = holding genitals still – also own / pipi – that she disturbs at night through / wishes. – She then puts slide / in mouth, also keeps doing that / later – just as when with / wishes to damage I indicate / castration – this man or woman / etc. often puts in mouth sucks / bites. – When notices change / in my hairstyle – was hairdresser – immediately scornful / remarks – ugly hairstyle or / changed. – In playing mother and child reproaches / me for untidy hairstyle, combs / – clearly – my damaged genitals. / – Between water games and afterwards / constantly theatre. A large / part of the mentioned games with figures / is theatre – then I must always / first shut my eyes and suddenly / see (interpret perceived coitus parents / from sleep.) O At theatre she / speaks mainly verse rhymes usually even / meaningfully. – Once also among other things a / policeman says to the little woman / has bit of white fluff at the back that / must remove from her. – Says herself / at interpretation father – for whom that is Mummy she / looks at what is behind = stool / says [?] to me, when I say: let us have a look | at it – always gets frightened and thinks / –p. 14 looking at bottom. – During water games / also one repeatedly for a while asks / whether I angry or I sad – until after / interpretations fear of mother because of dirtying / from stool – again other details. / – At theatre also once 1 man who / cuts out a pleat from a woman’s dress / at the back – says then not entirely at / back thus in between – whereby again shows / that for her everything was bottom – the pleat / is pipi. – Woman then runs / over this man – roasts – smashes etc. / – One time woman wants to put the man / with whom she has quarrelled in oven / and roast him – but he roasts her, she was / a witch – then he is released, is king’s / son – marries king’s daughter – / another little woman – passionate / kisses – wedding lasting for days – Right / at beginning had talked about fear of / robbers. Comes with stick or rifle / or something else long, to hit / them with it – when she bangs head / no anxiety – but only as long as / she – lying on stomach bangs head against / cushion. Interpret she is hitting herself / head = stick – both pipi – accepts / and says also defending herself this
way. – | Another time: robber has a green / suit on and white shoes p. 15 [something crossed out] / and socks Mummy has white shoes and socks. / – Later after policeman-thing – / I suggest robber also Mummy = police-/man, green suit. – At theatre / after sessions that are productive – / – [something crossed out] sometimes stronger inhib-/ition especially at beginning. – Then says / this woman = now not Mummy though or / and she will not play theatre with / people. – Only with carts or cars. / When then in enthusiasm carts / drive over each other, entirely the same / complex-driven things as with people. | 13/II. – Receiving new purse. – At first [something crossed p. 16 out] / begging for gift of money – soon – much red-/uced passion – question whether I again find / better to explain as giving present – that also a present. / – Theatre: at first father, daughter, bridegroom fly / on plane = purse. – Daughter does not want / to marry bridegroom at first. (Recently in play / also such refusal – makes a fuss – then she / takes good giant comes [?] later, flies away with her – then / she is satisfied and marries – the one intended for her / (interpretation: father) After the flying – she steered – / purse belongs to her – she is satisfied with bridegroom / – marrying – father then says are was fun / are brother and sister. – Father teaches / them how should do in trousers. Shows positions / constantly changing trousers, dirtying / changing. V [Looks at children underneath whether stool good]* / he calls mother who also agrees with / lesson on dirtying * – father also looks / under mother’s skirt. She also dirtied – / etc. – but is killed / by father with children. – Filth-orgy follows / constant dirtying – eating – / own stool and others’ – drinking / V Purse = lavatory is there. – Interpret purse / and my money gift = stool-/ thing. – Afterwards continues: (intensified / pleasure): father calls mother – asks me what / she says: I: I believe angry – she then:
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urine – doing on purse – immediately eating / fresh – children throw-p. 17 ing father in toilet – / putting on dirty-fellow suit fetching / out again – [something crossed out] Thereby putting in purse. – Then / rolling around in dirt. Explains: table chairs / walls house – everything filth whole world / filth. – Phantasises greatest passion. – Presses / herself on to my lap – I am a / large bottom she also – when we are / together – her stomach gets fatter and fatter. – / Then in rage throws all figures on to / floor. Previously also told: often licks / licks finger
that rubbed on genitals / – lets urine run over finger and licks it / also with finger dirtied by / stool-paper. – After rage throwing away. She Frau / Klein I her. – She sitting in my chair interprets / my game anally. – Thereby increasingly forcefully / jumps (up and down in chair – compulsion with / her.) – Tells me – that she masturbating / – calls masturbation – when she crosses legs / and thereby presses herself against chair – such a / nice feeling. That she wants not only to play / cupboard. Explain = is rubbing clitoris. – Would / like to bore a hole and pull out / something very long from there. – Clitoris. – / Does not want to know any more about / masturbating, is ugly after all, not healthy. / Asks me. – I conciliatory answer. – Whether / [something crossed out] it is not that she is to not to masturbate – Interpretation game was: / 2 women driving in car – men | walkingp. 18 along behind – women in their / beds doing – man pushes them – pushes / pipi into them. Thereby jumps more and more / furious wants to stop session. – Interpret coitus observation / mother dirtying – father coitus. – She / identification rage because does / not have pipi or father not to / dirty. – Suddenly pleased – would / like to play some more. – 14/II. More inhibited, play / less enthusiastic. – At first mother – then gym-/ mistress. Humiliates me because do / not stretch arms out well – can / shake hand loose – turn head round / well. – ‘Emperor and King’ – with throwing towel / (the days before – throwing wet towel / after pouring glass of water in curve, / – asking if she can throw wet towel / at wall, leaving it lying where / falls.) – Interpret she father I mother with / pipi = king – but she teaches / – Then hiding from each other and she / chooses corners by stove etc. – watches me / when I hide. Says / sees although does not want to. – (Interpret / plays mother and child – creeping away path / coitus – making me creep away – / thereby voyeurism about what father did to / mother. – Yesterday also made clear / to her everything was bottom – what bottom – little slit / little collar. – Told me wants to take out / eyes make eye-salad | In her ecstasy yesterday alsop. 19 addressed: You / eye-salad – cut-up nose – cut-/ up little slit feet legs etc. – / 18/II. – Strong aggression beginning forcing to / come to her, take off coat. – I take off – / she treading on me kicking wants to / smash everything. Then I leave it to her to go – but interpret / rage mother – cuts out more quietly: may-bug / with 2 feet – ‘all bugs with 2 feet’ – Then / doll’s dress – meanwhile inflatable doll’ – too / ‘Szani’ – has only one bad tooth – my / good tooth – is bad, relieves / herself, – no is well behaved. – Constantly calls / me also recent
sessions ‘bottom, pee-pee / poo’ Szani has no fir-tree / moves fir-tree. From Szani / associates: rainbow and fir-tree / tall one. Constantly does poo and pee-pee – / and rainbow rains on it. (After interpretation / all pipis castrated = also men – / she only bad pipi – Papa rainbow / Mama fir-tree – envy rage dirtying / each other) suddenly asks why / she so pleased. – Throws chairs little table / around – sets up dining-room several / lavatories – little chairs – at same time / steps also turned into lavatory. – / Cooks for me – is daughter – I father / mother dead we annoyed to death. / Brings me ‘shit coffee’ – again | very forceful and agonising demands statement / she cooks p. 20 better than mother. – I interpret = again / relaxation. – Then I place lavatory / she brings me food – soup / – says is what is at back and came / out at front. – Whether I want to eat / the same for myself that I make – she also. – / Then: I her from mine she wants / to give hers to me. – Full of enjoyment – / asks me why such fun? / – Has surprised me on lavatory / listened to me – unlocked key – / locked again – so that no one / else comes. – Then portrays / looking underneath me observing / stool, stool-hole. – Request not always / lavatory, dirtying trousers watching / each other. – With key drills / around my thigh looks / at lavatory – interpret penetrating looking / into intestine. – At farewell / again – as usual – concealed rage. – / [Something crossed out] wish to undress me in front of her / [something crossed out] repeatedly after phantasises giant / and interpretation large pipi – ask whether / she if she marries big father – / then her husband will also have / large pipi. Happiness, will be able / to look at it while getting dressed. – Here / puts a figure into mouth, biting / – I interpret biting off. 19/II. Intense jealousy | of Felix2 p. 21 whom she encountered. – Whether my chair / stands like that because he wanted – why 2 little / chairs close together – furiously demands / paper to dirty. Disappointed because / I give this and paper pencil – wanted to torment / annoy me. – After interpretation – scrawling rage / jealousy because suspects father and mother / secretly dirtying each other. – Relaxation / wants to sit near her when scrawls. / By rocking chair eagerly / masturbates ‘sculpting’. Here presses underneath / and also stool-hole. Describes / and shows me – jumping – with feet / jumping around on the bed – rocking / = ‘sculpting’ – cupboard games = / tugging clitoris – banging head and / then going to sleep while sucking thumb. – / Uninterruptedly to orgasm / masturbates in front of me – meanwhile / stands up in order to stand with / legs uncrossed. – / Sits down in corner – I to play / water games, she
watches masturbates. – Mo / She as mother says, doesn’t matter if / child dirty – I washerwoman / wash underclothes. – Then Emperor / King, throwing towel. – Finally / only now masturbates – stands up / masturbates etc. – at request / now refrains, telling thoughts. | (in strik-p. 22 ingly raised prettily / performing tone – very pretty selected / expressions. – Both also other times – but / this time particularly successful). A king’s / son rides on horse. Whip cheerful / queen rides on horse, also king’s / daughter. Both wonderful crowns. – / King lights large stove. Stove / leaps on to horse – horse on to stove – / queen on it – King’s daughter / on her. – Interpret masturbation phantasises: / she getting dirty together with mother / (following coitus or dirtying / phantasy of parents) – masturbating in front of mother / dirtying herself – dirtying child / allowed – washing paper with soap = / care of the body – soap also pipi – this / followed by coitus (Emperor, King – / throwing towel – once asked to throw / wet towel – but I must leave / there on wall where falls down.) – Then / phantasy coitus together mother father / according to observation. Noises – whip – / and looking – stove etc. – 15 and 16/II. / Very greedily eats oblong yellow / sweets – says like ‘egg’ – then ‘cherry / with glycerine hands – theatre / small woman little man and mother / – father dead – everyone to receive half a sweet | all the same. – Then / everyone 1p. 23 whole one. Child went into the / shop to buy. – Then puts sweet / in mouth, sucks on then playing / Emperor King – then just imaginary / children – at our call playing as well / – just girls. – Interpret sweet = pipi / red – eaten with semen – she father / Emperor – with mother also man / producing children. 20/II. – Cautiously / asks what and how Peter2 played [we spoke]1. Lurking. / Says no desire play I am to tell / stories. Passionately asks for and orders paper – / dissatisfied with what is given. – Then writes letter / does not want to reveal contents. Then asks me to write letter father dictates I only / pretend do not really help – closes tenderly. / Threatens to show father letter. – (Interpret fear of / masturbating etc. observation mother – will / report father = Peter2 – play-acting – / forcing mother to admit unlovingness father.) / – Am to play theatre. She interprets. – I play / little man and little woman go for a walk – policeman / [something crossed out] visiting gentleman in house – going away / from there – he comes after them. – / She interprets: father, policeman brother / sister forbids to do pipi-thing. – / Asks whether all adults know what / they thus (means ‘unconsciously’) think – whether / she when big that will / also know about herself and others. – Interpret observing /
mother’s thoughts – detecting something offensive | to her. – Builds p. 24 flat again – / overturned table dining-room – asks / why always so pleased when / sits down in it – little chair lavatory – anal / phantasies – eating stool etc. – Meanwhile / again threat – to show father letter. / – Interpret requirement mother they to dirty each other / etc. – 21/ II. Shows me picture Goes as / usual first to lavatory and ‘magics’ – so that / 2nd little chair that stands in front of table is put / away and toys cleared away from / little table. When coming in ordered / me to do that – then asked, I am to do it, the magic / works. (Little chair, toys – jealousy / previous patient.) – Game: [she has a]1 pig is slaughtered / – each chooses a piece, may only / answer with this word. – Shows me / a picture she painted. God on a / throne says looks like animal associates / pig. – Interpret slaughtering pig = / cutting up father’s pipi – always only / that 1 word – Juli (invented name). / Pig slaughtered = mother has slaughtered / pipi, she also wants a piece. – Then / asks for water games. I always have / to wash children’s filthy underclothes, / does nothing – but then washes herself / asks me for a wet cloth / when cannot give – fit of rage. / Will take something herself – the broken / little men – whom I do not need / anyway – otherwise takes uninjured / little bird – also puts it in her pocket | Then takes little p. 25 calendar-/ book from desk – keeps it – looks for middle / where divided – licks it. Interpret still / denial father’s wet pipi – least / damaged – in her opinion after coitus inside / remained damaged – robs mother’s / genitals. – She wants to hit pinch / push asks to tolerate it since she cannot / bear it otherwise, rages and wreaks havoc. / Something flows away after interpretations / 22./II – then writes me letter with / tenderest birthday wishes / – Interpret hiding rage hatred behind love. / – Previously had also on from cart that covered / with {synthetic material} wanting to take / this down could not further fit of rage. / Interpret licking father’s semen down / from mother’s genitals. – After letter / further fit of rage – treading hitting etc. / that after interpretations somewhat diminished. / 22/II. Immediately begins again to masturbate / intensively. V. Ask her to refrain / to tell thoughts, after a few resistances / obeys: – mouth, strawberries – knight Georg / squire. – Tells about knight G. – bold knight, could
Sucking as well.
