ABSTRACT
Arnie lived a full life at the edge of depression. He was born in the south, warm weather, warm water. He feels that the women who cared for him, along with his mother, over-fulfilled him. They gave him too much of everything: beach, swimming, boating, fishing, endless play, lots of attention, paradise. This, he claims, is the first bane of his life, things came too easy. He was not prepared for what lay ahead. He wonders, too, about sexual molestation, vague images, sensations, a woman mouthing his penis, a man doing something, wanting to do something, sensations in the background of his feeling self.
