ABSTRACT
There are drawbacks to being a ghost, despite its advantages. It reduced my fear of people by making them less important, but I could not have predicted the increase in the "badness" I felt. What contact I did have with people became more, not less, shameful, leading me to shun them further. My "badness" could take the form of an idea that my body was ugly—fat, deformed, grotesque—and that my internal organs were decomposing.
