ABSTRACT

The book offers an in-depth case study of the erotic transference experienced by a female analysand with her male analyst, exploring how the shifting phases of erotic transference help the analysand to understand, rediscover and redefine herself with transformative growth.

The first half of the book tells the story of the analysis, which is richly imbued with the erotic from the beginning. It describes the complexity of the relationship between analyst and analysand, and how the patient is able to grow through experiencing, analysing and progressing through the erotic transference. The second half of the book consists of five reflections, highlighting relative blind spots in the current thinking on the erotic transference and countertransference. The author explores the dynamics of power, potency and erotic turn-on between male analyst and female analysand and considers the implications for the erotic transference when the patient is a sexual abuse survivor. She also explores the nature of ‘transference love’ itself: whether it is ‘real love’ and how both members of the dyad can surrender to it enough to grow, while not losing their bearings. The final reflection considers the role of the patient’s voice in the psychoanalytic literature and argues the need for more of such accounts to enrich our understanding of this vital area.

Writing as the patient, the author is able to share a remarkable, frank and revealing glimpse into their personal experience of analysis, making this book essential reading for psychoanalysts, psychotherapists and anyone interested in understanding analysis in more depth.

chapter |6 pages

Introduction

Growing through the erotic transference

part 1|54 pages

The story

chapter |1 pages

Meeting

chapter |8 pages

Testing power and potency

chapter |2 pages

Seduction

chapter |5 pages

Penetration

chapter |3 pages

Birth

chapter |4 pages

Father

chapter |3 pages

Mother

chapter |3 pages

Reparenting

chapter |6 pages

Unleashing desire

chapter |3 pages

Female potency

chapter |3 pages

Lifting my foot to leap

chapter |3 pages

Leaving home

chapter |3 pages

Rage

chapter |3 pages

Teasing!

chapter |2 pages

Growing beyond the room

part 2|24 pages

Reflections

chapter |5 pages

Women's power

Suffering, gratitude, turn-on

chapter |4 pages

Erotic transference

Fear and desire; resistance or transformation?

chapter |3 pages

Working with sexual abuse survivors

chapter |6 pages

Transference love or ‘real love’?

chapter |4 pages

Revoicing the patient