ABSTRACT

Identity Transformation and Posttraumatic Growth Following Traumatic Brain Injury and Posttraumatic Stress Disorder provides an autoethnographic qualitative study that portrays the author’s recovery from a devastating life-changing event – a car crash resulting in the hybrid diagnosis of traumatic brain injury (TBI) and posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD), leading to posttraumatic growth (PTG) and identity transformation over a ten-year recovery period. In so doing, the text offers a comprehensive literature review on TBI, PTSD, PTG and disability culture. Throughout, the author explores whether growth (PTG) and distress (PTSD) and whether TBI and PTSD can co-exist.

Having lost her ability to read and write, the author had to learn how to learn, to heal and to have faith again. As a licensed trauma therapist and researcher, she collected self-observational data by writing her actual behaviors, thoughts and emotions in real time, both in a field and a process journal, even before she could write in full sentences. The many symptoms and co-morbidities of TBI and PTSD and the tenets of PTG are portrayed as they evolved in recovery showing the behaviors and characteristics of each. The text refers to actual journal entries, medical records and clinical notes from rehabilitation specialists, alternating between her clinical analysis and interpretation. The findings show that tragedy and suffering can lead to growth and positive change (PTG) after TBI, even though the precipitating trauma and psychological distress (PTSD) may persist for years. Changes are seen in self-perception, interpersonal relationships and philosophies of life.

This chronicled account of the author’s emergent recovery from patient to doctor is intended to benefit neuro-rehabilitation service providers (neuropsychologists, primary care physicians, speech-language pathologists) and also mental health clinicians who can see the evolution of PTG for what is now the new next step for many in PTSD recovery.

chapter |6 pages

Introduction

section Section I|24 pages

Setting the Context

section Section II|58 pages

Literature Review

chapter 3|17 pages

Posttraumatic Growth

chapter 4|13 pages

Traumatic Brain Injury

chapter 5|26 pages

Disability Culture and Disability Studies

section Section III|136 pages

My Journey of Recovery Following Traumatic Brain Injury

chapter 8|15 pages

Years 3 and 4 – Neuropsychological Impairments and Altered Relationships

Changes in Interpersonal Relationships/Reidentification

chapter 9|24 pages

Years 3 and 4 – Life Coach and Begin Self-Discovery

Changes in Interpersonal Relationships/Reidentification

chapter 10|24 pages

Years 3 and 4 – Mental Health and Spiritual Decline

Changes in Interpersonal Relationships/Reidentification

chapter 11|17 pages

Years 5 and 6 – Self-Discovery and Community Integration

Changes in Philosophy of Life/Acceptance of My New Life

chapter 12|20 pages

Years 7 and Beyond – Valuing Life and Developing Wisdom

Toward New Growth/Hope