ABSTRACT

“You know, it always feels like I'm dealing with two people inside of me. One is cold, angry and indifferent, and feels shut off, and the other can really feel and imagine how another person feels, and can really feel for the other's pain,” June cries as she feels this dialectical dichotomy quite intensely. “I'm grateful I have another chance to deal with this thing I ran from twenty years ago, leaving my son and family. But this other side, this cold angry side wants to kill me for facing my guilt and wishes to repair things.” She cries, as she feels the antilibidinal side threaten her in a murderous way, as a personified form replicated from the cold and envious attack of her internal parents. June's newly developing observing ego then responds back to the backlash of the old self with new concern and moral conscience. “I guess I'm going to see for myself what kind of person I am now that I've been able to arrange for my son to visit after all these years.”