ABSTRACT
I plan to tell two intertwined stories. One is personal: the story of how I suddenly-no, at last, at long last-couldn’t go on. I couldn’t go on as simply an observer of the history of government abuses of detainees in the war on terror, but found myself unwittingly applying psychoanalytic skills to influence that history, and how I ultimately found that I had to act. It is not my story alone, but the story of how a small group of psychologists and psychoanalysts uncovered and changed the American Psychological Association’s complicity in our country’s military and intelligence torture programs, and perhaps, in the process interfered with its continued execution.
