The day her head stops turning: Recognition of a gap, a sense of loss, a ‘hole in the heart’

During the following days, the theme of eating develops. Thus, on Thursday 4 December 1958, she tells me that when trying to release her jaw and the back of her neck she felt as if she had had a little fit in her mouth, and then adds that she has been cooking brains for the family but could not bear to eat them herself. Here I think she is telling me that there are difficulties in taking in from me, because to get good interpretations from me means, for her, eating my brains.