ABSTRACT
As I have said, Susan spent the first month of analysis telling me her history and how she felt there was something missing in her since the E.C.T., but she did not know what it was. On her return from the first Christmas holidays (January 1944) she tells me about a feeling she had while doing the clay head – that she felt there was a circle inside her by which she knew when she got it right, and that now she knows that this is what is missing. She tells also about a fear of getting into the centre of the circle, at the time of her breakdown at the farm, and the feeling that she would have the heart pains if she did; also about a ritual she had had as a child of getting into the centre of the head of a pin – ‘as part of exactness’. She adds that she had fears of being buried alive and that her mother had them too; also that the world is no longer outside her, as it had been after her ‘breakdown into reality’.
