ABSTRACT
For Peter accepting my feelings, as a boy, for my mates, has allowed me to experience the men I am close to in a new way. I was fetching wood for the bonfire suddenly you were there with four other boys they did not feature for me I could see only you I wanted to be with you but I could not come to play my father had sent me to fetch wood you diddent want to help … deeply hurt… I shouted if you dont help you can’t come to my bonfire party The fifth arrived the fire lit at first I was filled with my excitement met now with the memory of our last meeting erased I missed you … where were you my father noticed your absence go fetch Peter he said but I would not fetch you I would not fetch you Peter sat home all night with his box of fireworks his mother said waiting for me to call Saturday night was Peters firework party my father took me then left me there alone with my guilt how can I enjoy your party … when I did what I did to you. Ian Wolstenholme
