ABSTRACT
In this chapter, I localize the focus on Swapna and Sucheta’s suicide, the representation of that suicide, and what lies in the gap between those two truths. While doing so, I extend the arguments made in the previous chapters to ask how such a gap is produced, and whether there are possibilities of other kinds of representations given the framework of queer politics within which these stories become embedded. I shall demonstrate how narratives of their death produced effacements of their lived realities, locating those effacements as psychoanalytic symptoms of desire on the part of those who died, their immediate community, and the LBT group that documented their suicide. I conclude by stating that such subjects may not find a place to claim as their own in a field of queer politics that readily claims them into its folds, but only to speak on their behalf while they remain absent from those narratives. I extend this argument by postulating that it is not the nature of queer political subjects, but the structure of queer politics itself, that causes such misrepresentations to take place. Instead, I suggest that we turn towards a politics of hesitations (as opposed to models of certainty) that may be more fruitful in remaining true to the daily practice of queering everyday lives.
