ABSTRACT

All writing courses in the English Department are capped at 25 students, and

Love and Loss closed quickly. I’m reluctant to add students to a closed writing

workshop because the more students, the less time we have to discuss each

student’s writing. Twenty-five students is a large writing class-most advanced

writing courses are smaller and do not fill up. As soon as Love and Loss closed, I

began receiving emails from students asking-in some cases, imploring-me to

allow them in. It was not easy to refuse their compelling requests. “I am interested

in your course for many reasons,” a woman wrote, “mainly because a few years

ago, during my college application process, I wrote my application essay to this

university on a topic that indeed involved love and loss, the loss of my baby

brother when I was a child. I learned a lot from writing this piece, and I also feel

I can learn a lot from this course.” Another person wanted to take the course

because of the recent loss of her aunt. Another mentioned the deaths of two family

members in the last year. “I have had trouble coping with these losses since they

are the first ones I have experienced in my life, but it has been worse for my

mother. I was hoping to learn and progress in this course and convey what I

have learned to the rest of my family.” I emailed them and more than two

dozen others, telling them, regretfully, that I wasn’t able to honor their requests.

Kamilluh had taken my Expository Writing course last semester and sent me

the following handwritten note: