ABSTRACT
I am very glad of your letter and I will not think otherwise than rightly about you in these matters any more, and will receive the full help of your regard for me. So little can I judge of people that I was quite strongly, at one time, under the impression of your being quite disappointed in me, and withdrawn from me ; the reason of this was that my own life appeared so selfish and base to myself as compared with yours, that I thought it must seem so to you also, and that you quite despised me ; while I could not tell you, or at least explain to you, the various domestic and personal sorrows of my life, quite different from, or even contrary to any that the public fancy or know of me, which have crippled all my energy, and made me as I thought quite helpless to you… . You being able to form no notion could not but I thought look on me as getting merely lazy or selfish.
