ABSTRACT
This chapter explores moments of Cory Brown's academic life that is often inexpressible in standard academic voice and which, in turn, require a different way of writing and knowing. Cory sees fusion of autobiography and international political theory as an attempt to create a whole identity by synthesizing the pieces of the author's own lives with what they know about how political thought gets constructed, for the purpose of making some sense of the highly alienating force call modernism. Cory Brown thinks of Charmaine Chuas experiences in the London public library trying to get her heritage to stick by researching her family's Singaporean history. Post-colonial modernism has dropped on her doorstep the corpse of her own history. She like that berg makes suicide a political issue and not a purely existential one. The politics of it is that existential meaning is constitutive of community. Empathy, compassion, community. It's a dance, even if some of us have to dance off bridges.
