Memory and Performance
P.Performers deal with mistakes-their own and other people's-all the time. Usually the recovery is graceful. The potential catastrophe is averted, and only the performer feels the rush of adrenaline that comes from teetering on the verge of disaster. Gabriela remembers watching the conductor turn several pages by mistake at a critical point in Beethoven's Emperor Concerto and search desperately to find his place again while she played on, waiting for the crash. On that occasion, disaster was averted. The conductor found his place and the performance went on, but memory of the feeling remains.