The metaphor that captures the author's spiritual journey since September 11, 2001, is that of someone knitting on a New York City (NYC) subway train. It is challenging for him to reflect on the aftermath of the September 11 attacks without intentionally embracing the big picture. The September 11 attacks shattered the God's illusion that is favorably disposed to blessing his favorite North American children, while quite willing to neglect and abandon the less fortunate and privileged. He found him side by side with Jews, Muslims, Buddhists, and Hindus to bring comfort to the being crushed under the spiritual weight of the attacks. The attacks, however, challenged him to look at what it means to view oneself as a God's grace instrument. The tragic events of September 11 exposed the extent of the separation among the city's religious and ethnic communities. Immediately after September 11, there was an increase in person's seeking strength and comfort in religious communities of faith.