ABSTRACT

In scenes eerily parallel to the culture of fear inspired by our current War on Terror, A Need to Know explores the clandestine history of a CIA family defined, and ultimately destroyed, by their oath to keep toxic secrets during the Cold War. When Bud Goodall’s father mysteriously died, his inheritance consisted of three well-worn books: a Holy Bible, The Great Gatsby, and a diary. But they turned his life upside down. From the diary Goodall learned that his father had been a CIA operative during the height of the Cold War, and the Bible and Gatsby had been his codebooks. Many unexplained facets of Bud’s childhood came into focus with this revelation.The high living in Rome and London. The blood-stained stiletto in his jewelry case. Bud, as a child, was always told he never had “a need to know.” Or did he? Now, as an adult and a university professor, Goodall attempts to fill in the missing pieces of his Cold War childhood by uncovering a lifetime of family secrets. Who were his parents? What did his father do on those business trips when he was “working for the government?” What betrayal turned a heroic career of national service into a nightmare of alcoholism, depression, and premature death for both of his parents? Slowly, inexorably, Goodall unearths the chilling secrets of a CIA family in A Need to Know. 2006 Best Book Award, National Communication Association Ethnography Division

chapter 1|12 pages

My Narrative Inheritance

March 12, 1976–December 7, 2001

chapter 2|22 pages

Where He Came From

December 7, 1941, and Its Aftermath

chapter 3|28 pages

Hidden Tales Within the Paper Trails

April–December 1946

chapter 4|12 pages

What I Didn't Know

October 1944–November 1946

chapter 5|14 pages

Martinsburg

November 1946–September 1952

chapter 6|15 pages

Appointment to a Cold War

June 1954–August 1955

chapter 7|19 pages

Setup: Angleton, Colby, and Italy

1946–1954

chapter 8|18 pages

Rome

1956–1958

chapter 9|18 pages

Philby

1956

chapter 10|18 pages

Fragments: London

1958–1960

chapter 11|21 pages

London, Berlin, Washington

1960

chapter 12|19 pages

Wyoming

1960–1961

chapter 13|14 pages

Breakdown

1962–1963

chapter 14|20 pages

Recovery, Vindication, and the Night Road to Ruin

November 1962–July 1963

chapter 15|26 pages

Trouble at Home: Cheyenne

1963–1964

chapter 16|24 pages

Better Living Through Chemistry: Cheyenne

1965–1967

chapter 17|25 pages

Philadelphia and Operation CHAOS

1967–1969

chapter 18|25 pages

Decline, Denouement, and Death

1970–1976

chapter |4 pages

Postscript

Echos from the Story Line

chapter |11 pages

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