ABSTRACT
P: The moments when there was some calm so I could get a hold of the situation . . . were when I had someone next to me . . . I got agitated when that person was missing . . . It was externally induced. It was this person who brought me it . . . But it's something ¯eeting because then I'm left with the privation whatever . . . I do my utmost in personal relationships to achieve this inner quiet . . . Now I've got to go away for work and I'll be on my own. Before too I had the problem of my parents perhaps dying but I had friends to shield me. I wouldn't have been left alone. But I'd never wanted a job completely outside this environment. What's the point of just living for work and then going home to be all alone? That's not living! I'm pointless and meaningless on my own.
