ABSTRACT
The essay deals with understanding the ways that life came to a standstill in Kashmir immediately after the killing of militant commander Burhan Wani in July 2016. It deals with questions of surviving a war-like situation. It looks into the questions that people ask themselves when phone and internet connection is banned and there is a curfew. I ponder over the state of my existence in the midst of these restrictions as I remember experiences of having grown up in a state of militarization, where sexual violence has often been used as a weapon of war. I deal with the experiences of being a woman who struggled to survive the militarization and protect herself in self-deprecating ways.
