ABSTRACT
While wayfaring responsively through multiple worlds as a white educator, actions and beliefs are intricately woven. In this chapter I seek to illuminate and decipher the spaces of decision and indecision as a culturally responsive educator and mother. I use my heart as a way to question myself both as a mother grappling with the tensions present in the classroom, and the educational choices for my own children and those I teach. These separate, but entwined, voices challenge ideals of culturally responsive pedagogy as what I practice, what I preach and what I believe play out in a single moment with my son. The juxtaposition of the mother and educator provides a space where the narrative, and the audience, delve in deeply, reflexively, developing rich stories of what wayfinding means with multiple identities and how white educators can reflexively reveal and explore whiteness and racism within their pedagogy, and within themselves.
