ABSTRACT

This chapter aims to provide an exemplar of an autoethnography or perhaps an “ethnoautography,” of the taboo. It reflects on an article that originally emerged out of a black cloud which disseminates dust and soot more than epistemic knowledge. It asks how we talk into our research topics when soil folds into the crevices of our trachea and the earth is in our eyes. It speaks of how we may embrace a speculative pragmatism in order to stay with the processual and the more-than and avoid making a priori decisions. And questions what if we find ourselves during this process to be thinking with the taboo, thinking in the act with the grime that has tangled in our hair. The chapter examines how affect theory puts the political firmly on the table and how autoethnographers write with the taboo.