ABSTRACT
This personal narrative highlights an intended ambivalent pregnancy. The author used memory fragments, diary entries, interviews, and scholarly research to tell the story of pregnancy and birth. The use of creative nonfiction frames the story as a series of marginalized discourses from a relational dialectics perspective, in particular ambivalence (versus certainty), bodily knowledge (versus medicalization, versus middle class pregnancy), and flux (versus cost–benefit ratios). The problem is that these marginalized discourses are not well represented in the totalizing picture of the pregnant lady.
