ABSTRACT
Using my academic CV in the Estonian Science Information System as a starting point, I delineate its development via an attempt to make visible my life experience as a self-educated life writing and trauma studies scholar, mother of three children, feminist, and researcher of Estonian life stories half-unaware of internalizing the reticence in the Estonian memorial culture. My exploration is theoretically informed by Philippe Lejeune's scale of the autobiographical, elaborated in his revision of the autobiographical pact as a scale extending from “the banality of CV to pure poetry” as well as by Adriana Cavarero's philosophical framework of the narratable self at the root of the perception of the uniqueness of every individual, the who I am vs what I am.
