ABSTRACT
The file is under my bed and every now and then I drag it out from under the bed to have a look. If I could say just one word it’s guilt. It’s a big black scar that never seems to go away. I don’t know why I keep looking at the file. I should let it go. No one teaches you on how to come to terms with your own mistakes (Author’s interview with surgeon, 20 May 2011).
