ABSTRACT
This chapter seeks to create an impression of the 'inside' of discourse. It maps out its subjective traces and effects on the self through reconstructing the 'lived experience' of Foucault's modes of being in discourse and his strategies of resisting its subjectivating pulls. The chapter starts from Foucault's negotiation of anxiety (only to gain some more space to negotiate mine). It looks at the staged dialogues through which he rendered the operations of discourse present for his audience. Following Foucault, the chapter considers logophobia and logophilia as diagnosis for the epistemic relationship to 'discourse.' It investigates what it might mean to write 'in' and 'against' discourse as a practice of resistance to break out of the grip of both of these mentalities. Discourse requires handling with caution and care. It leaves a very special kind of 'trace'.
