ABSTRACT
Susan Deri used to tell of a case diagnosed as "chronic schizophrenia". Her patient, with support, eventually lived in an apartment and supported himself. This in itself took many years. But he was not satisfied with self-maintenance. He wanted love. His own analyst did not have a fulfilling love life and she feared for him. One day he came in and told Susan that he was in love and his loved one loved him. Susan was incredulous, sat at the edge of her seat, held her breath, and expressed happiness through her alarm. He spoke of his joy, married, and died of a heart attack on his honeymoon. Among many "explanations" and imaginings, one cannot help thinking that happiness was too much for him and the increment in aliveness killed him. One needs to build resources to support aliveness, no easy matter.
