ABSTRACT
This chapter illustrates how the analyst actually wrestles with his reactions or wounds. The material is taken from the first two years of supervised work with two very different analysands while the author was an analyst-in-training. This training facet colored the counter transference situation, as will be seen, but also gave further impetus to the author's efforts at self-scrutiny. Furthermore, the training dimension encouraged then and permits now the use of detailed notes taken at the time. The nature of this material and the training context will invite interpretation of the counter transference and discussion of technique. Transcripts alone of psychotherapy sessions are usually quite tedious, and the examples here seek to add other, unseen but crucial, dimensions. A counter transference-based style of working involves more than the periodic or occasionally required glance at one's internal processes. Rather, it is a slow, continuous process.
