ABSTRACT
This chapter attempts to convey dimensions of the analysand's experience of memory and time—from his point of view. It describes how—over time and with increasing emotional growth and greater differentiation in his internal world—he moved away from states of memory in which he had "lived", now becoming able to reflect upon his previous existence there and to inhabit the present tense of his adult world. In author's efforts to describe and more fully understand an analytic process from the inside out (from the locked-in vantage point of one analysand) and to explore certain aspects of his experience of a comforting/imprisoning "memory", the author turned to the imaginative world constructed by a novelist. Analysts must find a way to imagine their way into that psychological space and remain there until analysands are capable of freeing themselves from that order of time.
