“I Keep Most White People at a Distance”

So right now as I think about the two stories that I’m going to tell, um, I feel of two minds, because I have both of these experiences that happened when I was around 17 years old or a senior in high school and I didn’t realize it until I wrote them up, I feel of two minds. I have for the most part suppressed and just kind of put these things aside and not really dealt emotionally or mentally with what they said about things, but certainly my-my mind, heart, and spirit has absorbed it and sort of adjusted in terms of how I live my life. And so as I talked about previously, I think that I’m in two spaces. There’s the previous to these kinds of events and how I felt as a young person in that space of innocence, and then there’s the person that I am now and who I got to be after a certain point where I keep most white people at a distance. I don’t let them really affect me in the way that these two incidents kind of affected me or I’ll say the second incident that I’ll talk about.